I began listening to Lil Peep in August (2017) after a reccomendation from a close friend of mine. She loved his music and thought that I might enjoy it as well. I checked him out without hesitation, as I love finding new music. I only listened to Beamer Boy that night, but I already liked Lil Peep. All it took was that one song, and I was hooked. When school started, I was back in a bad place and I, as always, turned to music. I often found myself sitting on the railing of my back deck and watching the sunset. As the sky faded from blue, to pinks and oranges, and then to darkness, I would look in awe. During this time, I would mostly think about the toughest situation(s) that I was currently going through. I would put my earbuds in and blast whatever songs matched my mood. Usually, the artist would be Lil Peep. His songs that got me through the most were Awful Things, U Said, White Wine, and Problems. It was so easy to relate to his music and I am forever grateful to have discovered him.
When I heard that Lil Peep died of a Xanax overdose, I was on my way to school. I was getting twitter notifications from a few people that liked him. It all felt like a very bad dream. How could someone that I just started looking up to pass away?
The feeling was so surreal. I wanted to cry, but had to compose myself for the entire day. Drugs have been a big part of my life. I know many people who have struggled with addictions and nearly lost a few of them along the way. It’s always sad when someone you care about dies, but knowing that it’s something they could have prevented (by not choosing to do drugs) is even more upsetting. Addictions are serious and scary. If someone you know and/or love is struggling with a drug addiction, please find them help. Even if they refuse it at first, keep trying. You could be saving their life. I know Lil Peep’s story is a bit different (the drugs he took were laced), but it’s all pretty similar in the longrun.